In search of happiness among failures


By Tapesh Kumar

There is nothing new in failures. Every now and then somebody fails somewhere. But there is always something new in every after-failure. Some fail and fall to rise never again. Others fail and fall to rise again and yet without an uncertainty to fail again. And obviously, few fail and fall to bounce higher enough to take a leap giant so as not to touch ground again in same life. And here I am, not sure of where I stand.

Each time I fail, I fall so distant from my dream that walking back to it is itself a tiring exercise.

By the time I reach back and recoil, I am hurried to enter the second gate, and the realization and penance start at the time of free fall with rarely anything in hand than to make the fall just not fatal enough for life.

At times I would be scared of light at the end of tunnel, for it feels so accustomed in the dark, cosy and calculated that blindness of bright light pushes me in the middle of traffic and suddenly I feel I don’t have anywhere to go.

Knowing a thing might be a knowledge; statically scattered in books and realizations of millions of lazy sleepy mediators, but practising one is life. Of all the things, the most common in all the deemed successful people- in books, celebrity or among around us commoners- sticking to one thing is common.

Keep on running, and remain assured you will cross the finish line. Keep working on a thing, and a day will come you could work on it mindlessly in sleep and that becomes coveted success for newcomers. Stay in your marriage, and a day would arrive you would stop whining and being unhappy about it and that is what would be tossed around as an example of a successful marriage wished and sighed by anybody else.

Being happy is real but can not be planned ever.

The state of happiness is an idea perceived by others, never realized though, not even by the one who have been perceived so. It’s idiotic to run after being happy, for more than often happiness drives at the other edge of road in reverse. So, proposing that you are happy in the state you are, however gloomy or star studded, is befooling. You feel happy to be yourself – is abusing. In real, you feel happy for what you wanna be… yet to be…

The real trick is to keep it close. Have immediate plans, and there you go, you are ambitious. If you have more retirement plans, than for upcoming weekend, you already have a step in grave. Don’t kill the engine.

Distant dreams are deadly, if today they don’t give anything to work for. You ought to bring them closer, and in workable condition and you are in the race…

The race of keeping yourself happy, not being so, per se.

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Tapesh Kumar is a Law student from Delhi University