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Know the life of Abdullah through the insight of Maria Wirth

Abdullah also was nurtured by India’s wisdom and realised that his own self was the self in everyone

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By Maria Wirth

Some time ago, when APJ Abdul Kalam had passed away and his life was highlighted as an inspiration to all, I could not help thinking of another Abdul(lah), whom I had the good fortune to meet many years ago.He also did not restrict the feeling of brotherhood to members of the faith he was born into, but expanded it to all humanity. He also was nurtured by India’s wisdom and realised that his own self was the self in everyone.

Probably he, too, would have been criticised by some with a narrow mind-set for not truly being Muslim. And in all likelihood, he would have tried his best to explain to them that ultimately it is not important whether one is Muslim, Hindu or Christian, but whether one sees the one Divinity in all, including of course in oneself. He ‘knew’ that the pure feeling of “I” without any adjuncts of “this” or “that” is the same in all.

He died in July 1982 at the age of only 30. Those who knew him till today remember his loving nature.

It was August 1981. The monsoon clouds were heavy between the mountains. I had travelled for the first time to Nainital, 2000 meter high in the Himalayas. Together with a porter I walked towards Ban Niwas, a branch of Aurobindo Ashram, on top of a hill.

Abdullah had reached from Delhi some hours before me. I saw him sitting by the window trimming his beard, when I put my laundry on the washing line and liked him at first sight.

Abdullah was from Jordan. He was the eldest of ten siblings and had worked in Saudi Arabia to contribute more effectively to the family budget. One day he came across a small book by Sri Aurobindo “The Basis of Yoga”. Aurobindo’s thoughts touched him deeply – so deeply that he started saving for a journey to India. He was 27 when he flew to India in October 1979 and straight away headed for the Aurobindo Ashram in Pondicherry. There he integrated himself into the community and worked on the ashram farm. Soon, however, he felt certain stagnation.

“People liked me. I was popular. But I was disappointed, in fact really depressed. Even in Saudi Arabia I had been popular. But if this is all in life, I didn’t want to live”, he later confided to me.

He changed the place and went to the Delhi Branch of the ashram. There, too, he was made welcome. Among other tasks, he was to guide the visitors around the ashram. Sri Surendranath Jauhar, the patriarch, who had built up the Delhi ashram on his private property and regularly spent the summers in Nainital, told me over lunch, “Since Abdullah shows the guests around the ashram, everyone is very impressed. In fact they are extremely impressed.” And after a dramatic pause he added, “Not by the ashram, by Abdullah!”

It did not take me long to realise that Abdullah was not average. We spent a lot of time together and soon almost the whole day.

Every morning Abdullah asked the cook whether he needed anything from the bazaar. Something or other was always needed and Abdullah offered to get it. Then he asked me, whether I come with him and I always said yes.

Maria Wirth. Source: Twitter handle @mariawirth1
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We also wandered into the surrounding villages. The peasants invited us into their houses and urged us to have tea and snacks. Abdullah accepted their hospitality without any hesitation, whereas I, with my German mind-set, started to calculate that those small farmers were poor and I did not want to deprive them of their hard earned biscuits. Yet I also could feel that they genuinely enjoyed our presence and happily offered whatever they had.

Abdullah sometimes sang spontaneously one of the songs of Kabir, a saint who lived 600 years ago, when India suffered under Muslim rule. When Abdullah sang, everyone was quiet. He touched the village folk with his sincerity.

Abdullah was intuitive, calm and loving and I could learn a lot from him. For example, when he took the soiled hand of a beggar child into his own, looked into his eyes and asked what his name was. Then that little face lit up with joy.

The monsoon was over. Abdullah suggested visiting the temples in Badrinath and Kedernath at a height of over 3000 metres. When we silently walked down to the bus stand at five o’clock in the morning, I briefly glanced over to him. In the same moment he looked at me, earnestly – and I could feel that I had fallen in love with him.

Only a few months ago I had intensely thought about love (see the link to “love in India” below) and realised that falling in love with one particular person is not the ultimate and yet I could not help it.

Probably it was my luck that I fell in love with Abdullah. Because he had not fallen in love with me. Maybe he did not even know that state. He simply loved. Only years later I got a notion what the difference is. And only after I could feel that difference in myself and not see it merely intellectually, being in love automatically lost its great attraction. I am in love when I need the other person, when life seems grey and dull without him. I love, however, when out of my own fullness I flow out to the other in love. When I love, I am free, when I am in love with somebody, then I am bound to that person. Yet when our glances met on that morning, I did not make these distinctions.

It was a dream to climb together almost 4000 meter high. Everywhere we got in contact with locals and pilgrims who had come from all corners of India. The atmosphere on the treks and in the busses was full of joy and excitement.

Abdullah had a humorous remark for each situation and often made everyone laugh, when we could have cried as well, for example when we got stuck at landslides. Our co-travellers enjoyed his company and during tea breaks some passengers inevitably called us to join them. They wrote down mantras for us, taught us the Arati song “Om Jaya Jagadisha Hare” and kept singing the tune till we had internalised it, gave us addresses of temples and saints whom we should not miss, told us stories about Ram and Krishna and discussed highest philosophy. It was interesting. Nevertheless I would have sometimes preferred to be alone with Abdullah. He, however, did not have such preferences.

“When I came to India, I had consciously given myself to the One – to Him as the Absolute as well as immanent in His manifestation,” he later wrote in a letter to me. “I try to be open for everyone whom I meet. It is not for me to judge or be selective, because He is looking out from all eyes.”

Abdullah talked about God as if he was the only true beloved, ever close, intimate, and present, who directs everything for one’s best and whom one meets in each human being. Therefore there were only brothers and sisters for him. The path that he so consequently followed was the same that I also wanted to follow, but kept forgetting in daily life. He reminded me of it. I had the impression that he had an inexhaustible store of love. It made it easy for him to give his time so freely to others. And it made him so likeable.

“What is your work”, somebody asked him once in the Aurobindo Ashram in Delhi. An ashramite who heard it answered for him, “His work is to love”. And when once an acquaintance asked when we are going to marry, Abdullah said calmly and with a serious mien, “Don’t you know that I am married already?” “Really? With whom?” the questioner reacted in surprise. “With everyone”, Abdullah replied and it was typical for him.

Once we attended a talk of Jiddu Krishnamurti in Delhi. After the talk a friend took us back on his motorbike. He asked Abdullah to get down at a crossing, in case a policeman was posted there. “It is not allowed to be three on a bike”, he explained. “No problem”, Abdullah replied. “I will convince the policeman that we are not three, but one.”

Abdullah felt closely connected with everyone. He was convinced that there is only one Brahman, Allah, God or Self (names don’t matter). So his Self was also the Self in all others. For him it was clear that in every human being the one God wants to give full expression to his beauty, love and fullness. The differences among human beings are only in the degree in which the potential is manifested. The potential itself is in everyone the same.

“On this physical plane you are closest to me. But my love is for everyone the same”, he told me once. It was not really what I wanted to hear. I would have rather had him say that I was special. But Abdullah could not do me this favour, if he remained true to himself.

He tried his best to make me understand how he perceived the world. “Do you feel the beauty here?” he asked pointing to his heart, when we admired the breath-taking sunset from the top of a mountain. My attention had been directed outwards and I had not felt my heart. But when he pointed to it, I sensed what he meant.

“There is an amazing potential of bliss in us, far more bliss than what sensual enjoyment can give.” he once said when we were on our 14 km trek to Kedarnath. I believed him, because I had once experienced amazing bliss. I was 22 at that time, and meditated with a mantra that a TM teacher had given. Fully unexpected, something suddenly opened up within me and almost unbearable bliss spread out for a long time.

So I knew there was indeed great bliss in me, though I had no idea how to access it. It was helpful to be with Abdullah. Again and again he directed my attention back to the one Self.

Something had happened to Abdullah a few months after he had arrived in India. He had felt very depressed and seriously thought of suicide. “In addition to my depression I had a bad flue with high fever and truly felt miserable. I don’t quite know what happened. Something shifted and I felt absolutely wonderful. I still had a bad flue, still had fever. Yet now I enjoyed it,” he shared with me. “This shift stayed. It is not important whether I am healthy or sick.”

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Once, on Diwali, we visited a family in Delhi who were friends with Abdullah. They had two sons, 20 und 21 years old. It was a joy to be with them. Three days later Abdullah got a message from the mother. “Come! My son has died in a road accident.” It was heart-breaking. The body of Karu was lying on the floor in their flat, covered with a white sheet. His father sobbed uncontrollably. His mother tried hard to compose herself. I admired Abdullah. He did not fight back tears like me, though he had been close to Karu. He knew not only intellectually that everything is for the best and nothing really is lost by dying. Karu’s father put his head on Abdullah’s shoulder and wept. Abdullah sang with a low voice a soothing song into his ear. He had calm shining eyes.

We also spent time together in Pondicherry and Auroville. There, too, Abdullah would give his time freely to whoever asked for it. Yet in that westernised atmosphere, his attitude was a challenge for me. I could sense that two foreign women were in love with him. I could not blame them, but it brought out jealousy in me. Abdullah had shining eyes when he held my head in his hands and asked, “Did you ever think of being humble?”

A guru could not have aimed a better blow at my ego. Maybe his remark hurt so much, because I used to think that I was rather humble. Abdullah’s remark showed me that being humble did not mean to stay in the background for whatever reason. It meant: not wanting to be special. It seemed impossible. Maybe, those tears at that time were some sort of cleansing and the wish to be special has to fall off by itself. It cannot be ‘done’.

We also attended an international conference on “Ancient Wisdom and Modern Science” in Bombay. It was my first assignment for a German magazine and I felt intimidated by all those confident and competent looking delegates. The oneness of all was a topic at the conference, yet it seemed theoretical in the atmosphere of this 5-star hotel. Abdullah, however, was the same. He saw through the masks and loved what was behind them.

Abdullah was greatly devoted to Sri Aurobindo and wanted to go to Pondicherry in the heat of summer. It was a difficult decision for me, but I cancelled the train ticket that he had got for me in the last moment. He would come back to the north, we would meet again…

Abdullah wrote long letters from Pondicherry. He shared his thoughts and daily life in great detail. He also mentioned that he and a friend from Syria took swimming lessons from an Australian. Once, however, there was a gap of almost two weeks when no news came. Finally a letter reached, strangely from one of his friends in the Ashram. I was confused, hastily opened it and read: “Dear Maria, I don’t know whether you know already. On July 20th, he (the’ he’ was crossed out and Abdullah written over it) drowned in the sea in Pondicherry.”

“NO!” was all I could think and feel.

Epilogue:

It was very painful, yet already on the first day a voice got through to me and kept repeating: “Be bold, Maria! You know that I am not dead.” There were also many amazing incidents. For example a few weeks later in Haridwar, I had brought a friend to the night train to Delhi. It was late, when I came back to the Tourist Bungalow and sat for meditation. It was more a kind of dozing, yet suddenly I jerked awake: “Happy birthday, Maria! Happy birthday, Maria!” I clearly heard. “This is Abdullah”, I knew, but I didn’t know why he wished me ‘happy birthday’. Then I remembered that ‘tomorrow’ was my birthday. “Maybe it is tomorrow already?” I switched on the light. It was midnight sharp.

Maria Wirth is originally from Germany, has made India as her home for last 35 years. She is a saadhak and loves India. As she says: “My politically not so correct articles are on my blog.” Twitter: @mariawirth1

 

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Analysis of Ancient Aliens show on History Channel

Sometimes it looks likes the show is phony and fake. Many times it seems that they take a small point and turn it into a mammoth thing assuming that extraterrestrials were behind it.

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Ancient Aliens is one of the most famous shows of the History Channel. Wikimedia Commons
Ancient Aliens is one of the most famous shows of the History Channel. Wikimedia Commons
Dr. Bharti Raizada
A few weeks back, somehow I stumbled upon a show, on History channel, called Ancient Aliens.
After watching a couple of episodes, I think the show is trying to convey the following points:
Are aliens really real ? The show tries to answer the question, Pixabay
Are aliens really real ? The show tries to answer the question, Pixabay
1. Ancient civilizations were not able to do anything and they had no scientific knowledge, they were not able to build megalithic structures. Extraterrestrials came to earth and gave them the knowledge and also built things for them. They taught them science, mathematics, technology etc.
2. They even give the impression that all over the world, the government and high profile people are still in contact with extraterrestrials but all of them are trying to hide it from the public for some unknown reason and they all are able to keep it to themselves.
3. Gods may be extraterrestrial beings. They are very advanced scientifically and have very high tech spaceships and weapons. These beings came many times and at many places on earth. They interacted with different cultures. They want to control humans.
4. ET’s are continuously keeping an eye on humans.
5. They are guiding us on a specific path.
6. They keep coming and going back from this planet Earth. Initially, they came to mine Gold as their own planet was getting depleted of Gold.
7. They have lived with us and maybe living with us now. They also mate with humans. Very brilliant children on earth are the result of mating between aliens and humans.
8. They can wipe us out with weapons or diseases e.g. plagues.
9. Whole earth may be a scientific lab.
10. Aliens are doing some genetic experiment on us. All species of humans were created as an experiment and when the experiment did not go in the right direction, whole species e.g. Neanderthals, hominids etc were wiped out.
11. Time cycle on earth keeps repeating itself. Similar to a clock.
12. Our planet is a hologram. There is knowledge everywhere in the atmosphere. We just need to know how to get it. In very deep meditation probably we can get this knowledge which is in a code form. Many discoveries and inventions were by people who got this knowledge suddenly e.g. Nikola Tesla, Baba Vanga, Ramanujan etc.
13. Different religions/ cultures/civilizations have many common events e.g. great flood, the appearance of God or his messenger, working towards making  Gods or ET’s happy, concept of nine gods or counsel of nine, demigods, and primordial sea etc.
14. Many temples all over the earth still have some secret areas, wealth etc. which are not open to the public. Some of these are guarded by military and are considered very dangerous to go even nearby. Some people who tried to go in these areas fell very sick and died or never came back.
15. UFO is a real phenomenon. Many countries have secret labs where they are studying crashed UFO’s and captured aliens.
Aliens have bases on many planets, including ours. Pixabay
Aliens have bases on many planets, including ours. Pixabay

16. ET’s have bases on many of the planets including ours. They are present on Earth’s poles and other places on earth as well as inside earth. There are many layers inside the earth where vast cities of aliens exist.

17. There are living beings/life in space and on other planets. Some living beings live in extremes of temperatures or extremes of other conditions. There are beings who die if exposed to oxygen, some die in water, some die without water. There are living organisms on meteors, asteroids etc.
18. Shivling’s central pillar like part represents an energy storage equipment or atomic area. Surrounding part of the pillar is for waste materials to come out. Water is offered at the top of the pillar, like in nuclear reactors, to cool it down.
19. Kailash temple in Ajanta and Allora caves was built by ET’s using very high tech equipment which was capable of evaporating all ruble.
Kailash Temple at Ellora Caves is also said to be a creation of ET. Wikimedia Commons
Kailash Temple at Ellora Caves is also said to be a creation of ET. Wikimedia Commons
20. Underneath an Indian temple is an extensive tunnel system going to an underground structure where some beings sit on levitating thorns. Indian Government does not allow anyone to go near it.
21. Below another Indian temple, there is a door made of iron which has no locks. It is closed by mantras and no one dares to open it.
Is it really possible for US to have a military base at the moon? Pixabay
Is it really possible for US to have a military base at the moon? Pixabay
22. They say the US has a military base on the moon and that the moon is artificial and aliens have hollowed it out and have a city inside it.
23. There is a galactic war also.
24. Aliens abduct humans and do experiments on them. There are incidences where they took away the fetus from mother’s womb. Abductees describe these aliens as grey people and they feel paralyzed but are conscious during abduction period. Some abductees come back and some do not. There are instances where the whole village or group of people vanished from the earth.
25. There are giants, like Big Foot, living in woods. They smell like Sulphur, make loud sounds and elope very fast. They are doing some secret work for ET’s or are left here, on planet earth, for wrong or criminal activity on other planets.
Some points, which I don’t understand by watching Ancient Aliens, are…
1. First of all, if the aliens helped us building these mega structures like Machu Pichuu or the temple of Baalbek, then why did they take away the knowledge from us and why are they not helping us or building their own structures presently?
2. If they were so high tech, what happened to all of their creations? Why is everything in ruins now? Why we have to dig to find those structures now?
3. If they are living on other planets, what was the need to come to Earth and build things, is this not extra labor for them. And if they like Earth so much that they help us build things, then why don’t they live here?
4. They say that sometimes aliens give us knowledge and help us build thing but other times they say that aliens want to control us, destroy us and spread diseases like plagues. Is this not contradictory?
5. The makers of the show have themselves not seen any extraterrestrials, so their theories are based purely on imagination and have no scientific proof behind them.
There seems to be no concrete proof of the facts shown in the show to be true. Pixabay
There seems to be no concrete proof of the facts shown in the show to be true. Pixabay

6. They never bring mainstream scientist and archeologist on the show and interview them or ask their opinions, thus making people believe only their own opinion.

7. They keep repeating the same phrases and believe that by saying it repeatedly it will come true.
8. In one of the episodes, they say that deep inside a big structure and that it was very dark and there was no way to use lamps as there was not enough oxygen inside. Another said that he went there and tried to light his lighter but because of very low oxygen levels lighter was not lighting up. He forgot that he was breathing okay in that area of very low oxygen and came back alive with no consequences of low oxygen levels.
Sometimes it looks like their show is phony and fake. Many times it seems that they take a very small point and turn it into a mammoth thing and assume that extraterrestrials were behind that. Maybe they are fabricating some points.
Just to mention that many of Ancient Aliens Theorists do not have a degree in archaeology, history, religion, ancient language etc.
At some other times, it seems that their theory makes sense. As there are no explanations till now of many historical events, structures, knowledge etc., this theory at least tries to give some sense to these. These people are just postulating theories. They are not claiming that their theory is 100% true. If you believe that they are spreading lies then why no one ever sued them and History Channel.
Overall the show is very entertaining, educative, and addictive.